I just hate how some things have been turning out lately. It really is not fair. As soon as one thing turns good another turns bad. Why can't everything just be good. Why can't something just STAY good once it is good? Why??
I don't like being put into the position where you have to be really pissed off at someone that you really don't want to be pissed off at, but there really is no way NOT to be pissed off at them because they are screwing you over. How do you not be mad at someone when they tell you one thing, but then turn around and make it to where that wouldn't be possible anymore.
I have lost my only "safe haven". The only place that I knew I could go if I was really upset and just wanted to get away...that's all gone now.....and I really don't know what to do about it. Some things are really looking up for me right now, but on the other hand some things are really falling apart. I guess you could say that some of it is my fault...I am at the age where I don't like being bossed around and "protected." I think that there are some things that you just need to let a person deal with on there own. Don't but in, it's none of your business anyway. Not your life...
This is all just so frustrating and I am at my breaking point, and I'm starting to break. I don't know how much longer I can last before I start doing things that I regret again.How long I can last before I become severely depressed again...=(
I'm not sure if you want me to comment on this or not. But, please don't do anything you regret. And I do know what you're talking about.
ReplyDeleteYou once told me that I pulled you out of your deep depressive state. You told me that I was the only reason to stop.
If you start again, then where does that leave me?
Anyways, we may have lost our safe haven, but not forever. It's just temporary. The weather is getting to the point that we don't even have to be under roof to be away from everything. I know that nothing can replace the old place, but we can get close.
I love you